3 April 2009
Before I start, I would like to say congratulations to those who fell into my trick.
I'm not sure if I'll come up with a new one next year. Hohoho~
This post is going to be different from most of what I usually wrote. Call me attention seeker, I don't care. I will only curse you every singleminute second, praying that you will have a nice shiny polished baldy head by year 2010. If you want it to be more dramatic, I'll be more than happy to continue cursing until you get frightened to death, due to becoming (a) botak all of a sudden. (Felt this line is weird, but whatever.)
THIS IS MY BLOG! I HAVE THE RIGHTS,THE LEFTS, THE UPS AND THE DOWNS TO TYPE ANYTHING I WANT, WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION!
IF YOU HATE IT, YOU CAN JUST GET LOST. "POOF~!!"
(Sorry for the caps)
Saw him cross the road while I looked out of the window this morning. I stoned there. I had this special feeling, exactly the same on the first day we met. The same thumping sound. I know I should forget him, but I don't force myself to do things I don't like.
I still remember he gave me thatcheap small box of white chocolates that I kept in the fridge for some time. I thought by finishing them, brainwashing myself with sweet-smelling soap + water to erase him from my memory, I would definitely forget him. I'm just lying to myself, just to make me feel better. Or even worse? I feel like an idiot. I force myself hard, not to think of that person. But it seems that his big name as well as his face occupy my brain. He is always there, like a shadow.
Just like now. It's already midnight. I thought of him again. Wondering how he is feeling, wondering about lots of things. I shouldn't be doing this, but I really can't help it. I really love him. He made me feel so special, and important. He gave me all those happiness no one else can. But because of some stupid reason, which I think it's quite absurd and not willing to mention it again, we went different ways. I don't blame him. And, I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was.
Loving you is hard to regret.
Losing you is hard to accept.
But with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet.
可能我真的不懂得让你更快乐
我想和你在一起却在你未来缺席
All I hoped for...
is nothing more than just being together.
就让我们在一起
爱你每日一句
所有的情歌都有了意义
原来是因为我爱你
Thought of you.
I can't deny that I still love you, and can't forget you.
突然好想你 你会在哪里 过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛
还是剩了我 全程念挂你一个
How's everything for you?
最近还好吗 想念的心开不了口
枯想着你有没有好好过 担心着你每天生活
你好吗 最近如何 照顾身体工作加油
Thinking of you, crying in the dark is useless.
It only causes me more agony.
想念如果会有声音 不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今 终于让自己属于 我自己
只剩眼泪 还骗不过自己
"Why?" is the only question I asked myself.
I had to endure everything, all by myself.
Do you have a slightest idea how it feels?
为什麽失去了，还要被惩罚呢?
留下了我一个在痛。。。
Thanks for the special memories you left for me.
Thanks for the 3 weeks + you stayed by my side.
Thanks for the 'stab in the heart' too.
"Arigatou Gozaimasu!"
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲 变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品
我们 那么甜那么美那么相信那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去？
If I knew it better.
If I knew it earlier.
I won't let this happen.
I rather be in my dreams, forever.
早知道是这样像梦一场
我才不会把爱都放在同一个地方
Don't worry so much. I will lead a better life myself.
I will always remember those little things you did for me.
I will learn to let go.
我一个人也会勇敢好好过 不让你担心多一秒
想念着 每天每秒我们故事 每天每秒说好的事
你我决定不恨了也决定不爱了。。。
And now, I wish time will go faster.
I want school to start.
I need to be occupied by other things, not him.
I hope he would burn in hell, get stabbed by pointy forks.
I hope he would start foaming at the mouth.
I hope he would be corroded by concentrated hydrochloric acid. You know, those highly concentrated HCl?
I shall not be too harsh. I hope he would just disappear.
I said it once, and shall mention it again. I don't blame him.
让我在没有你的地方疗伤
Today is his 22nd birthday.
(If you all are bored, try figure out the name)
I'm not sure if I'll come up with a new one next year. Hohoho~
This post is going to be different from most of what I usually wrote. Call me attention seeker, I don't care. I will only curse you every single
THIS IS MY BLOG! I HAVE THE RIGHTS,THE LEFTS, THE UPS AND THE DOWNS TO TYPE ANYTHING I WANT, WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION!
IF YOU HATE IT, YOU CAN JUST GET LOST. "POOF~!!"
(Sorry for the caps)
Saw him cross the road while I looked out of the window this morning. I stoned there. I had this special feeling, exactly the same on the first day we met. The same thumping sound. I know I should forget him, but I don't force myself to do things I don't like.
I still remember he gave me that
Just like now. It's already midnight. I thought of him again. Wondering how he is feeling, wondering about lots of things. I shouldn't be doing this, but I really can't help it. I really love him. He made me feel so special, and important. He gave me all those happiness no one else can. But because of some stupid reason, which I think it's quite absurd and not willing to mention it again, we went different ways. I don't blame him. And, I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was.
Loving you is hard to regret.
Losing you is hard to accept.
But with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet.
可能我真的不懂得让你更快乐
我想和你在一起却在你未来缺席
All I hoped for...
is nothing more than just being together.
就让我们在一起
爱你每日一句
所有的情歌都有了意义
原来是因为我爱你
Thought of you.
I can't deny that I still love you, and can't forget you.
突然好想你 你会在哪里 过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛
还是剩了我 全程念挂你一个
How's everything for you?
最近还好吗 想念的心开不了口
枯想着你有没有好好过 担心着你每天生活
你好吗 最近如何 照顾身体工作加油
Thinking of you, crying in the dark is useless.
It only causes me more agony.
想念如果会有声音 不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今 终于让自己属于 我自己
只剩眼泪 还骗不过自己
"Why?" is the only question I asked myself.
I had to endure everything, all by myself.
Do you have a slightest idea how it feels?
为什麽失去了，还要被惩罚呢?
留下了我一个在痛。。。
Thanks for the special memories you left for me.
Thanks for the 3 weeks + you stayed by my side.
Thanks for the 'stab in the heart' too.
"Arigatou Gozaimasu!"
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲 变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品
我们 那么甜那么美那么相信那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去？
If I knew it better.
If I knew it earlier.
I won't let this happen.
I rather be in my dreams, forever.
早知道是这样像梦一场
我才不会把爱都放在同一个地方
Don't worry so much. I will lead a better life myself.
I will always remember those little things you did for me.
I will learn to let go.
我一个人也会勇敢好好过 不让你担心多一秒
想念着 每天每秒我们故事 每天每秒说好的事
And now, I wish time will go faster.
I want school to start.
I need to be occupied by other things, not him.
I shall not be too harsh. I hope he would just disappear.
I said it once, and shall mention it again. I don't blame him.
让我在没有你的地方疗伤
Today is his 22nd birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, M
希望你能找到属于自己的幸福。
You are the one mistake I really didn't mind, at all.
You are the one mistake I really didn't mind, at all.
PS: The content is mostly original.
PS1: I don't care if the above looks like a copied essay.
PS2: I don't give a damn if you don't understand my way of writing.
PS3: All Chinese words, except for the last line, are lyrics from different songs.
PS4: You know what will happen to you if you call me attention seeker, am I right?
PS5: If you don't have a single idea, please open your eyes big and reread the 2nd paragraph.
PS6: You better go wash your dry, poor and hurting eyes if you stare at your laptop's/desktop's screen for too long.
PS7: It seems that when I am writing for each PS, my sentence will get longer, so I shall stop for now.
Cheers~
(Edit @ 12.55am)
A promise to myself.
Let go of him, and start life all over again.
Though it's a promise or vow or something, but...I think you know what I'm trying to say.
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