Will not be blogging for a while - because I'm trying to control myself from something. Something real bad. Seriously, I can't get those suicidal thoughts away from me. No matter how my parents and younger brother tried to persuade and encourage me, the relieved thoughts and those nice feelings were just temporary. Whole mind is thinking of ways to die without pain. I'm beyond hope. I'm tired of crying silently at night, with no reason why.

I can't bear to leave my parents, that's why I'm still hanging on, though I don't want to. I can't bear to leave my best friend, who is also my wife too! Leng Leng's AWESOME and THE BEST that I can ever have! <3 <3


Anyway, I'll be back soon. Don't miss me.

I'll reply the comments, if any, from time to time.